New Children's Books!

I have three new childrens books coming out soon. They are based on my little boys and I hope to have a series of them out soon! Stay tuned for more details!

Don't Push Through it, Walk Through It: With God

This is a simple summary of my new book I am working on

Don't Push Through It, Walk Through It: With God

Getting Over Loss and Grief

By Angelica Carmouche

Summary:

Often times, I have thought that every trial and tribulation that I have gone through was something that came into my life as something being against me or something or someone was attacking me in my life and I just had to forget about it in order to push through it. I felt that I basically had to push the incident or time frame out of my mind and focus on something else.

Naturally, I believe that some people would agree with those statements, you know…just push through whatever is ailing you. Don't think about it. Find other things to occupy your mind and your time and in time things will feel normal again. It is a negative form of thinking because you are avoiding the reality of what actually happened to you. It also brings up a couple questions: like what exactly is "normal" and how do I get back to it without feeling that normal won't ever be unless this had never happened to me? These are hard questions huh? Yeah, I think so. I think that when you force yourself to forget things that have happened to you in life you actually end up losing a portion of who you are and you forget that there is a bigger purpose for life. I have come to find throughout some very depressing and harrowing moments in my life that there is a big huge universe of purpose and a defining power behind that purpose that holds not only challenge for getting stronger but also opportunity for mental and emotional clarity, spiritual growth and an ever increasing growth and strengthening of faith. This power behind the purpose is our Heavenly Father and the Lord God Jesus Christ.

The realization that I have come to is this: when we face the issues and facts of the circumstances that surround what has happened to us to create the trials and tribulations that we have gone through and go to God in prayer, we give ourselves over to God. When we give ourselves over to God we are opening ourselves up to a multitude of blessings that can then change our lives. We begin to walk through our pain with God holding our hand and in walking through the pain not pushing through the pain we begin to accept and heal.

This book is going to describe some serious drama that I have gone through in my life. Lord Jesus, big smile. Some serious drama that most likely wouldn't have happened if I had not allowed negative thinking and negative thought control my life. Yet hey, I am not perfect…right, I am human. I learned over time, most recently in fact, that God heard my prayers, heard my cries, and He heeded my call and out of all the crap that I went through, I actually have some triumphs. There is still more to my story that I have not lived through yet but as I walk through this with God at the forefront I am reminded that not only is my story not over there is more wonderful things to come and that is the hope for a future.

Have Time Anyone?

Well, I have been learning somethings these past few months...doing alot of reading...I mean alot of reading.  The Blessed Life by Pastor Robert Morris, the Bible, books with passages of scripture and the Bible. Every now and again around seven thirty, I read to my son...Baby's First Bible Stories and What to do with the Boo Hoo Baby...thats fun.

I may squeeze some house work in there, but basically my house looks like the center circle of you know where. I have washed but unfolded clothes on everywhere but the kitchen counters and tables...a few dishes left to wash...because we only have so many of those...hahah...got to wash those dishes. Trash has been taken out Thank GOD. But I feel like there is never enough time. I found myself getting frustrated to the point of well...I don't know what because it is literally the minute I get my house looking like nobody lives there...we live in it and it gets trashed out again. Toys everywhere...blocks...books, teddy bears...more blocks...socks. Oh and movies because my son loves movies.

For anyone who doesn't know I am a single mother so my child goes to daycare and I work...I am expecting again with eight weeks left so by the time I get back from work and get up situated in the house, I am tired, tired, tired. Again... Time Time Time.

Most people wish for time, more time, to do this, more time to do that....to go back in time and do what wasn't done so that they wouldn't have to do what the are doing now. I had to learn that God has his own time too and I am not on my time schedule, I am on God's time schedule and when He wants something done that is when it needs to be done. Usually when He says get it done, it means right then...not later.

I am one of the world's biggest procrastinators...I believe myself to be a good pressure worker, or that I work well under pressure. Well at least that is what I used to think. I no longer fool myself into believing that foolishness. I now know I have to make time for everything otherwise I will never get anything done. Now since I will have two babies running around the house taking up another piece of time I feel I do not have enough of...I have to get more organized than I ever thought I could be.

It is stressful to feel as if you do not have enough time to do housework, enough time to spend with the kids, any time to shower, any time to eat...any time to sleep...no time no time...if only I had enough time. God give me peace.

For all the work we do everyday in order to make money to pay bills just to come home to a house that is in a state of disarray it can weigh heavily on our hearts and our minds and create a depressing stressed feeling. That is why I have started something that to me I feel is new to my heart. It may not be new to some...I know it is not new at all...but seeing as I had never fully employed this process...it is a new process for me.

I am dedicating the first of my time to the Lord. I wake up at 4a.m. well before my child...that may change in eight weeks with the new baby but for now...I wake first. I am starting to give the first of my time to the Lord so that He will bless the rest of my day and I will feel less stressed and have more peace of mind to get my tasks done throughout the day. It is a good concept that can become habitual and a part of life if applied daily. If in everything you put God first...start first with your time...God will give you more of.

The whole idea of tithing extends much further than money...although we have to be faithful in that as well. Having faith and having faith stretched is a painful experience especially if you have never been tested before. I don't believe I had been truly tested until now. The experiences so many people have gone through, everything that I could have avoided...but God is testing me so now I know there is a developmental process that I have to go through in order to become fully rounded in the Lord...part of that...the most important part...is putting God first in everything...time, money, effort and purpose.

Ecc 6:7 We work for our own desires and yet we crave even more..

Crave God, put him first and He will pour out blessings for you that you never imagined. Hold tight to faith. Make God your purpose in life by willing your efforts towards what He wants you to do with your time. Place your heart on God and everything in your will be blessed including the all elusive time...smile.

Lesson Learned: More God, Less Me.

There are many reasons people may choose to fast. Some may fast to lose weight. Others fast for religious traditional reasons at certain times of the year. What I have learned from fasting this year is fasting is to humble oneself before God. To completely surrender in faith and trust to God. In humbling oneself, we are asking God to take over and we are asking God to draw nearer to us. We are asking God to change us. God does not change for us when we fast because God is the same now as He was in the beginning as He always will be. When we fast we are changing ourselves in order for Him to work through us and in us. We are seeking our true selves through God. We are saying Yes to Him and saying More of you Lord and less of me.

If you choose to fast, you can take comfort in knowing that a fast is anything you wish to refrain from for a certain amount of time. You can take a fast of food which is the most common or you can do other fasts...you can fast from television, you can fast from sex, you can fast from smoking, you can fast from anything that you wish the Lord to speak to you about during your fast so that you can receive your breakthrough. It is important to pray while you fast, because like said, it is a surrender...and refraining from anything for any porportionate length of time takes patience and most importantly prayer.

Fasting brings you closer to God, it allows you to remove yourself from what it is that you are fasting from so that God can remove blockages from your life and work miracles for you. Have faith and trust that God wants to work wonderful things for you. He loves you. I have learned this over my previous fast: More God, Less Me.

Sincerely,

Drisana

Urgent Prayer!

From Anne Rhodes: (PRAY FOR MY COUSIN'S GREAT GRANDBABY/CHARLIE RAY FURRUH) Charlie Ray, 1 year old baby girl, was operated on to remove a malfunctioning kidney, but by mistake the doctor removed the GOOD kidney. They are air lifting her to Dallas ASAP to get a kidney transplant. Please pray for this to happen QUICKLY and for God to sustain this little girl and her parents during this difficult time. Pray for God's wisdom and strength for the family and God's healing touch to be upon Baby Charlie Ray. Pray for a successful transplant in Jesus' name. The family are all believers.  Thanks so much!

Cravings

Lord God in Heaven, I used to crave for physical things, more clothes than I need, more time than I need, more food, more of everything. All these physical cravings consumed my thoughts, my lifestyle, my everyday when I should have been craving more of you. I knew you were always there Lord, at my side, at my back but I should have been looking for you at my front to guide me. I lost sight of what I was supposed to have been doing. I was walking without a plan. With too many clothes, too little time and money management and too much food consumption.  I had only to rely on you for a plan instead of relying only on me. Over consumption of anything will lead to a loss of something with whatever I do. Spending too much leads to debt, not managing money and time wisely leads to waste and allowing food to consume me has led to unhealthy body and an unhealthy spirit life. I don't want my spirit to starve Lord so I rely on you so that I can resist the tempations and redirect my cravings onto you Lord. Jesus, Lord you were tempted so I know I am not alone. Temptation does not have to come in the form of food, it can be in any form, and produce all kinds of cravings. Lead me not into temptation guide me towards your spirit of truth. Today I sustain a deep craving Lord God, a craving for your spirit and truth. I wish to be consumed by the spiritual cravings of truth and life, not of darkness and death. The life of the righteous is in your hands. Lead me to the cross where I lay my burden down. God be with me.

Amen.

Drisana

Search for a Deeper Meaning

Sometimes when I write or think I have rambling thoughts and everything comes out jumbled and confused. It is like I am typing on the keyboard and every second or third key that I hit sticks and I have to hit it several times and it ends up like ttttttttttthis. Does life seem like this to you sometime? That is when I realize that I have to take deep breaths and quiet the noise in my mind and in my heart and ask God for peace. I have learned over the past week and nearing sooner to end of this week of truly allowing God to take over and in handing over my problems, fears and concerns to God, not to pick those problems back up and try and tell Him what to do with them. In the past couple of weeks of fasting and prayer I have found a portion of inner peace that has allowed me to truly surrender to God and not fear the future unknown.

Lord God, my life is in your hands. To you I give total surrender and hand over all my worries, fears, doubts, insecurities to you. I will not pick these problems back up turn them over in my hand and look at them and tell you what to do with them. I will let go, as it well should be with total faith in my surrender to you Lord. Keep guiding me Lord and draw me closer to you so that I may have strenght in the journey.

Amen

Drisana