The Weekend (fasting)

I have learned that God peaks to you when you are quiet and all the noise is quieted in your life. That includes the noise in my mind. I experienced my own awakening this weekend. I felt the presence of God and it was while I was lying down, my child was sleeping...the television was off and my eyes were closed. This is what I heard:

Some people who experience God tell you they have experienced Him and it is usually after a huge loss. The Lord has moved into their lives they tell you and changed them and it is after they have experienced a trial or a terrible circumstance. There is nothing wrong with that the Lord was telling me because it has happened to me. But what then...the Lord asked me personally, what have you done after God has come in cleaned everything up made you feel better and moved you forward in your life? Remember now....God was speaking to me...ok. Let me change the tone. The Lord asked me "what have you done after I have cleaned everything up, you have taken the mile I have given you and regressed backward inch by inch until you are doing exactly the same thing you were doing before that led you to calling out to me in the first place. If you would have just stayed with me instead of pulling back you would have been even further along. Does that make sense to you? The Lord asked me that...does that make sense to you girl? "

The Lord showed me in my mind where I had asked for His help, called out His name and how in turn He had answered me. He showed me the times He had placed answers in front of me and I chose other paths and he showed me how He had even used those diverted paths of mine to better me. The simplest thing is this, God told me this in my personal prayer..."you don't need a loss to call out to me. You don't need a terrible circumstance or a horrible consequence. You don't need those things at all to have me in your life all the time. You can have victory in your life without having to suffer loss after loss after loss. I don't want you to suffer, I want you to experience the freedom of knowing that I am with you everday, every moment, and that you can be secure and happy with that knowledge and move forward in a positive way."

As I prayed on this, I understood that I do not want to suffer any more losses either. I want God in my life without the pain of self-inflicted loss and I do not want to regress either. I didn't know how long it was going to take for my own spiritual awakening. It was pretty quick by what I considered my standards. I guess it is because I discovered that I am expecting again and the Lord who knows everything revealed these things to me now in this short period of time. Now my prayer is focused on having another healthy pregnancy and birth. My faith levels have definitely been raised. My attitude about food has changed as my hunger for spiritual food has grown. It is absolutely amazing what God can actually do.

I pray that God continues to use me as an inspiration and I pray that if you decide the same that you experience your own awakening with God.

Praise God by the power of His Holy Name, Lord Jesus

Amen

Drisana 

Day 5, of 21 Day Fast

I am grateful to God that I started today out with a prayer. "Lord God, just be with me Jesus." I had no idea how much strenght I would gather from those few words in a prayer. I can't express that enough because I have said those words many times today. Lord God, just be with me Jesus. Jesus, Jesus, Jesus. There is nothing like the "name" of "Jesus".

Oh, it was tough today, really rough. The devil working all kinds of tricks on my mind and in my heart. But you know it wouldn't be God if the devil wasn't trying to work me. My birthday is coming up and a friend of mine wants to take me to lunch, I asked him if he would mind waiting until after 5p.m. and I told him why. It is a fast from sun up to sun down I told him. Well, he told me it was just foolishness that he would have to "plan his life around events" and he wasn't going to do it. So I told him "nevermind." God, God, God, oh well, something must be coming to revelation that day on my 35th birthday. I will wait and pray on it. The Lord knows I am being true to my committment.

Keep me in your prayers, this is as I have said a committment to God and I am dedicated to keeping my word. It has been for sure a conditioning of mind, body and spirit.

Be still and have faith in the Lord whose strenght I hold near to my heart.

Drisana

Day 4 of 21 Day Fast

Not by my will, Lord, but by your will be done. That is what has been rolling through my head all day today as the 4th day of my 21 day fast leads toward a close. It is interesting to me how far from God and His perspective I have been in life. After removing food for just four days now how much I have leaned on nothing but the support of the Lord God Jesus Christ. How I have called on His name just in my mind. It is interesting to note that this is not something that I have done in my life just daily. I have prayed yes, I have seen God answer prayer and have felt the power of prayer in my life yes. I have been a testimony and have seen my own personal miracles occur but now I can actually say that I have felt God pull me closer in to Him and I have felt His presence more.

There is more to this I know, there is more than I have to learn. I want to learn more, I yearn to learn more to feel more to have more passion in life for Christ. I have committed myself to this fast and it is absolutely amazing to me that I have a new desire a new driving hunger to have a more initimate relationship with God.

I cannot speculate on what will happen next. I am experiencing as I go through this and I am learning. It is not easy but when it gets the hardest and believe me the devil tries to play on my mind...calling on the name of the Lord and praying Lord, God if this be your will then let it be. Not by my will but by your will Lord God be done. Total surrender, total trust.

Have faith and be still.

Drisana

Day 3, of 21 Day Fast

Day 3 has been a challenge and an answer to prayer. I honestly did not expect a call to my heart such as this when the Lord spoke to me. Some challenges have been on my heart and you know with challenge we feel troubled and with those troubles I went to the Lord in prayer asking for guidance. I received an answer to this prayer as quickly as my mind thought the request. I was told not only to keep blogging but I was told to write the past troubles that I had gone through out.

Being an imperfect person, I have been through many different things, my own self inflicted trials and tribulations and have not always actively sought God in my life. Of course I always believed in God, I always believed that Jesus Christ died for me and my sins. Yet I did not fully know what that meant and in my ignorance, I lived my life for myself not fully having surrendered my life over to God. I believed in God and yet I lived as if He did not exist. I only went to Him if I saw there was no other way not fully realizing that He is the way.

Lord, I do not wish to live my life as if you were a sidebar to my question mark. I wish to live my life in complete surrender to you God. I wish to live my life in total trust in your truth and your word. God in giving myself over to you, I have complete faith that you will redeem me in what has been lost and I will be found in the protective Glory of your Grace and your Heavenly Holy Spirit. Thank you Lord God, for your mercy, thank you Lord God for all that you have done for me. That my sins have been forgiven by the sacrifice you made with your son Jesus. Thank you Lord God. In your Heavenly name I pray.

Amen

Drisana

Day 2 of 21 Day Fast

Day 2 of 21 day fast has reached midday and I have not had a single craving for food. I am leaning more on spiritual hunger and a thirst for more of what God has in store for me. Life gets in the way of alot of things. I have found that when I am not thinking of breaking for lunch or what to snack on next, I am conversating more and more with God. This challenge is just that a challenge to discipline myself through prayer and devotion that the Lord will take care of all things that come my way.

This fast like any other challenge in life is just one way to show that God has the reign no matter what we may think we are in control of. It is like my Grandmother used to tell me, the best way to make the Lord laugh is to tell him your plans. God has a positive plan for all our lives. I believe that more now than I have ever believed anything in my life. We make what we think are mistakes but God takes our "mistakes" and turns them for His Glory.

Lord, your ways, make known to me. Teach me your paths, guide me in your truths and teach me. For you are my God, my Savior, for you I wait all the day. Psalms 25:4-5


Drisana

I can do all things through the God that strengthens me.

Day 1 of 21 Day Fast Part 2

Well, the first day of my 21 day fast has come to a close and it has been in no way an easy task. I have to say that the temptation was all around me whispering in both ears, but the Lord kept me strong. I am ready for rest and another day of prayer and fasting as I continue on this journey of spiritual growth.

Keep me in your prayers. For those of you who are reading this, I appreciate your support as it means alot to me. Thank you for your continued prayers.

Here is a prayer to end this post.

Lord, God, Heavenly Father,
Surround me with the strenght of your presence and guide my path oh Lord. Bless all those who are reading this and fill them with the spirit of your presence allowing them to know that you are always there walking the road they are traveling on. Stay by our side as we walk with you oh Lord to the destination and glorious blessings that you have planned for us. For you have said that you have a plan for our lives oh Lord. A plan not to harm but to prosper us. Prosper us spiritually and emotionally oh Lord that we may glorify you in our works and in our words and our day to day activities. In this I pray, by the power of your holy name Lord, God Jesus Christ.
Amen.

Love,
Drisana

Day 1 of 21 Day Fast

Well, it is day 1 of my 21 day fast and of course the day was started out with a prayer. Dear Lord, I do not know what I am doing but I know you will help me along my way. As I start this journey, walk with me Lord. Let me not close off my mind just to keep from thinking of food but allow my mind to be open to you Lord Jesus. Allow my spirit to be receptive to what you want revealed to me over the next several days and lead me in the direction you wish for me to go.

Thank you Lord Jesus in your Heavenly name I pray, Amen.

I am praying constantly in my mind, be with me Jesus over and over. Every moment now, my mind is on the Lord. It is actually surrender to God to trust that I do not have to rely on food for any comfort and that is hard because for so long food has been my comfort. Now I am telling God, Lord you are my only comfort here because I have removed food from my comfort zone. Only God is occupying my comfort zone. Wow, how much does it take to say that and actually mean it? It is a faith feeling.

I will attempt to post two messages a morning message and an afternoon/evening message. I am drawing nearer to the Lord believing in the promise that He will draw closer to me. I am walking a journey to discover what my true purpose is and how to fulfill it. Pray for me as I continue to pray. I hope to inspire as others have inspired me and during this time to keep hold to my faith and encourage me I am reading AWAKENING A New Approach to Faith, Fasting, and Spiritual Freedom 21 days to Revolutionize your Relationship with God By Stovall Weams.

Pastors Stovall and Kerri Weams have been an inspiring aspect in my life and just hearing them speak and teach at Women's Conferences or on special Sundays at HPC, I have been blessed to have received the word from them. It is amazing how much being in attendance at HPC has changed my life. Pastors Dino and Delynn Rizzo the leaders at Healing Place Church are absolutely amazing; God has through them opened Faith doors for me. I thank God for them. It is only by walking through those faith doors that I have the devotion and strenght to go through this and I know that God will carry and see me through. I look forward to this learning experience and the spiritual growth that comes from it.

Drisana