White Holy Light

        Sweet enveloping Spirit
bind me with your calming energy
Engulf me whole, make me yours
Cure my heart, my mind, my soul
   with your deep warm embrace
You are the power that binds me
    The Healer that holds me
 The Grace that keeps me calm
Fill me so that I will never want
Soothe me so that I will not divide
  falling deeper into the confines
                of my mind
          Be my binding Spirit
             White Holy Light
      Stay my soul, be my might.

    Angelica Drisana Carmouche

A Broken Heart

Have you ever had your heart broken? I have. It can really really hurt and all the words in the world does not seem to heal a broken heart. What is the definition of a broken heart? In my humble opinion I would say the definition of a broken heart is when you are so sad or hurt over an experience that you have gone through or over something that someone has done to you that it consumes your entire being. It follows your days and nights and you feel as if your heart has been kicked out of your chest and you see it spiraling over the side of the universe. That about sum it up? I think so. The hard part about having your heart broken is the healing process. You always heal...the important thing is HOW you heal. It is important to heal in a positive way most conducive to your well being. Drawing from my own personal experience, I can say that it is hard getting over a broken heart. My heart was broken into pieces when I lost my only daughter. She died before she was born so I had to deliver her as a stillborn. I carried my baby to seven and half months. She would have been four years old last month at the end of August. Now this is the hardest year for me because we just celebrated my son Ethan's first birthday and although I am happy and blessed to have my son I could not help thinking of Autumn. I did not fall out and cry and wave my fists in the air screaming "Why God Why??? No I got down on my knees and prayed to God that my heart continue to heal as I continue to mourn her as another year goes by. I miss her. She may not have lived a day outside the womb but baby she lived inside of me. I felt her move, I felt her kick and I felt her as she grew inside of me for seven months up until the day she decided she was going to go back to the Lord. It was difficult letting go. I cried for months. I found that writing helped alot during that time and two years later I had my book put together and had it published in her honor. One of the poems I wrote dedicated to her is entitled "A Balm". If you are familar with balms it is a soothing salve to heal wounds. Jesus made balms when he healed the sick and created his wonderful miracles and this poem is based on the true life experience that I encountered the second I delivered my baby Autum's body and the spiritual encounter that followed. It was truly heart achingly beautiful. It took my breath away and it also brought me a second closer to healing than I ever though possible in my life. If you think you are all alone in the world, then you do not realize that there are Angels and of course the Almighty God looking out for you. The most wonderful thing about God is he is there all the time. You may not notice him, but he is there. He is most there when you have had a broken heart. When your heart is broken, your heart is open and bleeding; your heart is pouring out emotion and is ready and open for a cure. God enters in through a broken heart and heals. All you have to do is call out to him and even if you cannot speak, if all you can do is cry or even wail...just know your spirit is calling out to Him and He can enter in and make things well again. I know you have heard of the expression...it is greater later...well it is. God is the greatest and He can make all things greater. The most important thing to remember is when a heart breaks it is because that heart has loved and where there is love, there is always God; God is the healer that can mend all broken hearts bringing the pieces back together to form an even more beautiful loving reality than ever imagined.

Written with Love,
Drisana

Greetings

Welcome to my new blog, Ask Drisana! I created this blog for everyone who requested that I start a relationship blog. Thank you I appreciate the warm words and motivation for encouragement. Let me tell you a little about myself. I am a poet true to my heart and my words come from my own experiences. I do not advertise to hold any special degrees although I do have a a Batchelors of the Arts degree in Interdisciplinary Studies with a concentration in Psychology. This does not make me a pychologist or a shrink or anything of the sort. It just means like anyone out there I am interested in human nature and search for meaning in whatever interests me. I believe in God and that there are Angels all around us that guide and protect us as we journey through in this life and have a deep respect for prayer and prayer life. I believe in enhancing prayer life and know based on my own experiences that prayer can change your life for the better. I believe in the power of life and death in the tongue and I believe in living spiritually and treating others the way I would like to be treated. Hence the Golden Rule.

I welcome you to email me with anything you may wish to ask or say and I will post your questions, comments and I will pray for you about it and post my response. I hope to inspire you, to make you feel inspired and hopefully incorporate that inspiration into your everyday life. I know that you all will continue to be an inspiration to me as you already have inspired me to embark upon this new unknown.